Life is anything but normal. The moment things actually start to feel a little "normal" something changes in such a profound way that I am suddenly not the person I thought I was. Or better yet, I seem to hold more wisdom than I knew I might be capable of.
The BIG news few friends, I"M PREGNANT! AGAIN! I know I know, shocking right?!? well I'm sure it will not be as much of a shock to everyone else as it was too me, afterall we were only going to pick up and uproot our life to Colorado and everyone took it with such ease. I imagine announcing our second child will be much the same. Good thing, the insecurity and uneasiness I had all 9 months of my first pregnancy nearly drove me nuts. BUT, SHES A BIG GIRL NOW ;)
One BIG happy family :). I can't express how humbling it is to know that I am giving IV the one thing that helped shape my entire being, a sibling. He is going to be the best big brother and I can't wait to see what this next step has in store for all of us. I never imagined myself with 2 children so young but maybe life isn't supposed to be planned. Obviously, birth control is no more obligated to follow the rules.
I think it's a girl.
But this could be because I had a spirit medium tell me this among plenty of other things, but ill save that for another story. Can we just sulk in the fact of how absolutely terrifying raising a girl in "todays" society could be. And I quote "today" because of course it's all relative to your perception or at least thats how my family has chosen to view things. Anyway I'm just thinking that maybe if I can be a stay at home mom/jeweler/crafter/super woman/ gardener?! I'm going to change the inevitable and raise healthy children. I want some milk.
So, finding out. The dang LSU health center done did it again. I had a horrible sinus infection this whole past week which is very unlike me. I've never had issues with my sinus's so why would that change out of nowhere?! You'd think 2nd go round you might know when a baby is sucking the life out of you right?! maybe this is my wake up call.
We have decided if it is in fact a girl we will name her Ava Lee Tulip Bacala; cute! Ava is my pick, Lee is my grandmothers name, Tulip is who I believe to be one of my gaurdian Angels.
Now that I'm pregnant I can remember how exhausting this is. It takes all of your energy and feeds it to this growing human inside you. I don't mind it though I'm just resting up for what is sure to be a bumpy ride :)
Living in Love
Amanda
